Education, Life Experience

Little Knockbacks

A kid told me today that he hopes I don’t get another job. Not because he wants me to stay, which wouldn’t be possible on the temporary contract, but because he thought he was being funny. He saw me planning out a cover letter and said I should pay someone recruitment company to do that instead because – apparently – it’s stupid. And that’s how you get a job in this world. I replied saying that it’s actually an important job and his retort was, “I hope you don’t get it,” with a grin.

Don’t take things to heart is what I’ve always been told but it stung me. I feel like the whole world is against me at the moment for getting started on my career. A few comments from people who otherwise have no business in my career aspirations actually go a long way. It feels like every time someone says something, my confidence is knocked back. I am really intent on discovering my perfect job and I feel like I’m so close, but at the same time, so far.

Education, Life Experience

Children are sunrises…allow me to explain.

I get up early, there’s no two ways about it, 6am is early. It’s dark when I leave the house – I am literally up before the sun itself and often it’s raining and miserably cold. And this is all whilst I’m on my way to work when it would be much more preferable to stay in bed (wouldn’t we all just love that). So here I am, walking along to get my lift to the school when I notice something. I have some epic music in my ears (probably Taylor Swift, but she’s epic to me) so I haven’t really been paying attention to my surroundings, other than when I need to cross the road of course, but all of a sudden there is light in the atmosphere. And I can see the sun coming up into the sky in the most beautiful way I can imagine. I never used to see this, what with the earliest lecture being 9am which meant getting up at 8, but since I’ve been working at school I have had the pleasure of seeing the gorgeous golden light that tints the sky on a morning. It’s not always golden though, (but that’s my favourite) it can be pink, orange and even a lilac colour if the weather is right. And it’s just glorious; it makes the 6am start all worth it.

School is hard, there’s no two ways about it, the work is hard. It’s tiring when I enter the building or a classroom and I am confronted by a flurry of different alterations, requests or information that may or may not be relevant. All this is whilst I’m trying to do the actual job that I have when it would be much more preferable to sit with a coffee and reflect for half a second (wouldn’t we all just love that). So here I am, working with children, adults and sixth formers, all of whom I am able to help in some way (or so I hope I am!) and my brain is hurting. But then, out of the blue, whoever I am working with clicks, they get it, they understand what they are doing and have learned something. Or, I laugh at a joke with a sixth form student and we continue to improve our relationship together. I never used to see this, when I was at school – I would arrive at 8.30, do my lessons, be good with the teachers and go home at 3 o’ clock. What a life, but now I am here, I get to see all the wonderful things that happen with various kids that I had no idea would go on before. I am no longer in my own tiny little bubble where it was just me. I am a part of this school community and I am making a difference. It makes all the hard work, the headaches and the stress pretty much worth it.

And that is why children are like sunrises. They surprise you when you’ve been in the darkness for so long and they come up shining.

Aww.

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Entertainment, Film, World

On this Journey…

…to the Past

You must have seen Anastasia. If not, then shame on you! It’s gotta be said that it’s one of my favourite films ever and ranks highest in my favourite childhood films and then in animated films. I just love it. And I recently downloaded the songs onto my iPod, so whenever they come on I get this warm little feeling inside that takes me right back to when I was about ten, sitting with my Anastasia and Dimitri dolls, singing along to the songs with my sister. It gets me right in the heart, tugging at the strings and every now and then making me well up slightly.

A good kids film has got to have amazing songs. And Anastasia is just one of many that I love singing along to. Thumbelina is also one of these, made by the same person actually. It’s just beautiful! In both films, the animation is amazing and the music is so lovely. Let me be your wiiiiings. I mean, how sweet is that?! Sing that to me and I’m yours, quite frankly.

But it’s not just these relatively girly films, oh no! You’ve heard of The Road to El Dorado, right? Please? It’s about these two con-men who end up on a ship to El Dorado, the city made of gold. So, as you can imagine, they want to take it all for themselves. It is hilarious, beautifully animated by Dreamworks and the music is just awesome, by the one and only Elton John.

And you may have noticed that none of these are Disney films. You’d be right, because as much as I love Disney films with all the nice princesses and everything, I just think there’s something special-er about these kinds of films. Obviously there are others, such as another Dreamworks production, The Prince of Egypt, but these just hold a special place in my heart. I suppose I also ought to mention The Swan Princess, which is a sweet film, full of love, songs and love songs. Perhaps one of the most famous and heart-wrenching lines: “What else is there?” It’s like nooooo, Derek! You silly handsome fool! Princess Odette certainly is a modern woman.

Finally, not to forget the ones that not many people have actually heard of. The Princess and the Pea; this one I found on Sky Movies and I loved it for its sheer cheese! For one thing, the prince is called Rollo which as a name makes me smile because it’s so lovely and for another thing, Rollo manages to crash through a solid iron fence with no injuries, a scene that makes me laugh so much beyond belief. And then there’s a version of Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. This was a video cassette that my Nana had at her house and I used to watch it all the time, mainly because I loved the dress that Snow White wore and how it was animated. Oh the simple pleasures of children, ey?

It took me an absolute age to find both these films, I thought they’d disappeared into a great vacuum of filmic history!